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Time Lapse

2012-02-02T12:45:00.005+07:00

*gasp in awe*

6 sks terakhir

2012-01-30T20:50:00.001+07:00

terimakasih banyak, Tuhan
entah bagaimana lagi harus menuliskannya.
mengukirkannya dengan font apa?
vivaldi dan monotype corsiva
tak cukup indah mendefinisikannya.

hanya ini, Tuhan.
arial 12 diatas A4 80 gram.
sungguh, 84 lembar ini bukan kuatku.
seluruhnya anugerah-Mu

word play

2012-01-24T23:42:00.000+07:00

too bad that we can't take this pain away
least we can do is separate.
so what more can i say?

so maybe someday
i can make you stay
or...
maybe we're meant to walk the different way

2012-01-06T11:12:00.003+07:00

sempurnalah kehidupanku

SE, you're mine soon!

2012-01-04T17:12:00.002+07:00

a December i won't forget

2011-12-31T12:33:00.000+07:00

rest in peace, our dearest grandpa Kandou, grandma Pantow.

have a great celebration of Christmas up there in heaven :')

be strong, to those who are tied up with a case.
what's done can't be undone,
but you guys can do your best to make up a better future.
my prayers are with you.

goodluck on our test to the future, fellows 2008!

and, though you're not all i want for Christmas,
i sure wish you'll be home for Christmas.

and, last but not least,
this may be the last post of the year.
i'm not in current mood of writing resolutions.
so i'm hoping this would do.

Merry Christmas & Happy New Year 2012, fellas!

:):

2011-12-08T16:35:00.001+07:00

here's how to say it properly:
i can think of myself having your last name behind my Mrs.
but will your ancestors care to share theirs?

here's how to put it bluntly:
i don't think your father approves me.

here's how i send it to you:
nah, i'm fine. how's your day, dear?

({})

2011-11-23T18:14:00.001+07:00

"just cause i refuse to show my weak side,

doesn't mean i don't long for arms i can fall into

when the raft becomes too dicey" -Arby

a click for a change

2011-11-04T14:40:00.000+07:00

click-able sites not to waste your time:

http://copenhagenize.eu/index/index.html
http://www.treehugger.com/
http://fashionlovespeople.com/
http://www.good.is/
http://occupydesign.org/ http://3things.org.au/

see, there are many things we can do :)

a view from here

2011-11-01T19:38:00.002+07:00

i find it normal to see that most of my generations failed to find trust on the government, yet again participate in pembangunan indonesia.
layaknya pacar yang diselingkuhin,
the past govern betray our trusts.
who to believe? you would ask.
from munir to "udin"
from seagames, to komodo.
we got used to stamp everything "PUBLIC LIES"

we find it easier to learn shuffle than so-called reshuffle.
or the newcomer ayu ting ting than the economy's new thrill.
we'd totally read harper's bazaar all over again,
compared to the intrigue in.. what was it again? gatra?

but then again, have faith my dear fellows.
on the palm of our hand, relies the nation's future.
on the thoughts of our brain, this nation puts hope
and on the depths of our heart, this nation cried help.

do listen, young fellas.
you don't have to be a president to contribute.
listen to ibu pertiwi's weep.
give your faith a try.

this one's inspired from here:
http://www.thejakartaglobe.com/lifeandtimes/give-me-a-reason-to-believe-in-indonesias-young-politicians/474617

2011-10-28T11:52:00.000+07:00

empty

2011-10-28T11:49:00.001+07:00

i stay motionless
watching my feelings,
all from-me-to-you go,
even sadness

and so i embrace these alphabets,
what i had left.
because from here, where i sat
the view isn't very great
but at least i had no regret

let love be your energy :)

2011-10-13T00:18:00.001+07:00

an email this dawn <3

for our better self

2011-09-23T10:26:00.000+07:00

so scared at getting older,
i'm only good at being young
so i play the numbers game
to find a way to say that life has just begun

had a talk with my own man,said "help me understand"
he said "turn 68, you'll renegotiate.
don't stop this train,
don't for a minute change the place you're in
don't think i couldn't ever understand, i tried my hand"
al, honestly we'll never gonna stop this train :)

-john mayer, stop this train -heavier things

be blessed my dear country

2011-09-21T20:19:00.001+07:00

tahukah kamu indonesia telah masuk kategori negara bankrut semenjak 1998?

tahukah kamu indonesia termasuk negara yang menerbitkan junk bonds?

tahukah kamu bahwa lkpp itu selalu defisit dalam pembiayaan?

tapi tahukah kamu bahwa Tuhan mengasihi negara ini luar biasa?

sehingga pun lewat 13 tahun, negara ini belum mati.

dan walau rumitnya kasus politik,
pertumbuhannya cukup signifikan 10 tahun terakhir.

tahukah kamu kalau doamu besar kuasanya?

*cmiiw* :)

revelation on a weekend

2011-09-19T10:13:00.002+07:00

you can't wish poverty to disappear,
but you can do something against it.

have some faith on this country.
because i do,
and i believe we can.

2011-09-14T19:31:00.002+07:00

baby if i could, change the world

some call it distance

2011-09-13T16:20:00.001+07:00

i listen to your font
while staring at your pixels.
we love through fiber optics
and call it the test of future

keep it connected,
keep it running.
though many failed at downloading
because we will preview
the system they don't believe in

have some faith

2011-09-12T14:22:00.000+07:00

you think it's worth it

while i think it's stupid

you said "believe it"
i screamed bullshit.

you asked "wait with me"
while i wanted to run free

you even tried to convince me that we can make it
but darling, i believe none of this sh*t

nothing much

2011-09-08T23:01:00.003+07:00

my tears loathe you so much that they ran out

memories stabs you from behind

my heart broke itself, can no longer contain your name

but then again,

there is nothing left to say than

i crave for more of you

thank you so much is the right phrase

2011-09-08T22:57:00.002+07:00

for my God, my mother, and laptop advisors: alfonso, david, fitra.

this isn't macpro, but its worth the happiness :)

self reminder

2011-08-24T21:39:00.003+07:00

"the best things in life are worth the wait"

gotta keep reminding myself that.

suicidal

2011-08-24T21:25:00.001+07:00

goodnight, reality.

i will be sleeping.

for only then i get the chance to embrace you.

2011-07-25T15:36:00.001+07:00

where can i find one of these now? :3

part of future living room

2011-07-21T15:16:00.001+07:00

steinway & sons
Model O

thou shall be mine

2011-07-21T15:04:00.004+07:00

alaskan malamute

visit me on tumblr :)

2011-07-15T19:14:00.004+07:00

http://blameitonraisa.tumblr.com

doubts

2011-07-10T20:36:00.002+07:00

do you think that he's worth having?

because comfort in him i used to have so many

and faith on us was abundantly

yet now i found myself wondering

why oh why have i lost confidence in he?

why won't this doubt just let me be?

why i kept on hesitating?

why this whys kept on showing?

2011-07-04T20:24:00.002+07:00

would you be kind enough to remember?

mainan baru

2011-06-28T12:16:00.005+07:00

polaroid is sooo~ much fun!

life 101

2011-06-23T17:22:00.001+07:00

dream.

and as if it's not enough,

wake up and make it real.

oblivious

2011-06-23T13:04:00.002+07:00

kan sudah pernah kubilang

aku tidak mudah memaafkan

apalagi menjadikanmu kawan

sudah kubilang jangan,

aku ini sulit melepaskan

makanya jangan beri ku harapan

aku bilang kan sudahkan saja hubungan kita

kamu sih keras kepala

lihat sekarang.

aku terus melihat kebelakang.

kearahmu yang pergi melenggang.

cursed mind

2011-06-23T12:21:00.002+07:00

i'm sinking,

to an ugly feeling

no cure can relieve me

for it's you what i needed.

come back.

the break up

2011-06-23T11:51:00.005+07:00

its unfair to let you dwell in the same bunk i left you,

yet it still hurts to burn this feeling.

so i'm saving our good memories.

it's not much, but it's enough.

how much, you said?

"always have, always will"

wishful thinking

2011-05-29T20:34:00.001+07:00

i wish when you look unto me,

the rest of your life you'd see

2011-05-10T21:24:00.001+07:00

ini dulu

baru itu

a.s.a.p

2011-05-02T13:45:00.003+07:00

#0095

2011-04-23T14:01:00.003+07:00

cinta itu tidak buta,

ia menutup mata

make the change

2011-04-19T20:07:00.004+07:00

All of us have a thousand wishes.

To be thinner, to be bigger, have more money, a cool car,

a day off,a new phone, to date the person of your dreams.

A cancer patient only has one wish, to kick cancer's ass.

I know that 97% of you won't post this as your status,

but my friends will be the 3% that do

In honor of someone who died,

or is fighting cancer, or has survived cancer.

it may not be world cancer's day anymore,

but it's never too late to help.

spread up :)

my lucky 13

2011-04-18T20:10:00.005+07:00

age is just a number to remind us, of how much we should be thankful.

and that i am legal in every country,

with every wish you guys made me,

i'm thankful in your abundance of love.

thank you guys, for those who made 21 an absolute blast!

reblogged #092

2011-04-07T22:06:00.001+07:00

so i guess i wont have to catch a grenade for you?

2011-03-28T11:43:00.001+07:00

aku bosan dengan bosan.

brand new

2011-03-24T19:14:00.008+07:00

instead of being mad, i cherish the moment of us parting,

instead of weeping, i make myself smile

for what i had back with you isn't something i'm gonna forget.

maybe sometimes i do regret,

and somehow it still makes me sad

this may sound cruel,

and i would be naive to say its for the best,

but how would i stay if my heart already left?

so then.

good-sniff-bye

be there or be squared

2011-03-24T17:31:00.005+07:00

make a move to save the environment,

while join fun :)

Sunday, April 10th 2011

1. Unika Atma Jaya, Sudirman -> Museum Bank Mandiri -> Lap. Banteng
2. Monumen Nasional (Monas) -> Museum Bank Mandiri -> Lap. Banteng

Ticket price:

28.000 for Atma Jaya students

30.000 for non-Atma Jaya

(incl. goodie bag, lunch, tees, and door-prizes)

Performance by:

Barry Likumahuwa project, UCMJ band, and many more

PS: if you're lucky enough, barry will bike next to you ;)

for more info, please do not hesitate to ask me further!

see ya there, folks!

four line 4 you

2011-03-16T21:21:00.003+07:00

hold me, feel me near.

don't tell me this ain't real.

for august is coming here

so soon i can't stay still

second place, first winner

2011-03-03T22:42:00.006+07:00

terimakasih, Tuhan.

untuk pemeriksaan akuntansi yang lolos dengan c+

saya tetap bisa mencapai target 7 semester

untuk jadwal semester 5 yang 07:00-21:00 lalu 07:00 lagi

saya dilatih bangun pagi lagi

untuk bbm yang super lemot seminggu ini,

saya jadi bisa berkomunikasi dengan manusiawi

untuk berantem sama mama minggu lalu,

kami sekarang jadi tau apa yang masing-masing mau

Terimakasih banyak, Tuhan

untuk banyak hal yang tak teraih,

Engkau menyediakan yang lebih baik.

maha-siswi

2011-02-07T22:01:00.004+07:00

Akuntansi Perbankan
Akuntansi untuk specialized industries
Seminar akuntansi keuangan
Komunikasi bisnis
Metode penelitian
Sistem pengendalian manajemen
Teori akuntansi
Praktek pemeriksaan akuntansi
Praktek perpajakan
studi kelayakan bisnis

welcoming the last subjects, thesis awaits!

a comeback

2011-01-30T12:14:00.006+07:00

i went to SMAN 34 Jakarta! *dino dance*

percayalah, jadi perempuan itu enak. dapet priveledge untuk masuk dengan alasan yang ga begitu meyakinkan itu lumayan bukan? hehe. jadi, gw masuk dengan menahan ktm oranye gw dan menukarkannya dengan ini:

dan tujuan pertama gw, diandra, aldevi, dan augustyas adalah:

kita dateng jam 10 ga lain dan ga bukan ngincer ayam bakar pak de yang terkenal langsung abis sebelum pulang. muahahaha *evil laugh*

things changed.
sistem sekolah (i was about to write perkuliahan, haha) nya jadi moving class, so u dont stick to one room for the rest of the year. and not to one pack of friends too. well, as for me, that's too bad, since there wouldn't be any names like 'SOSTIRAM' will it be?

pembina OSIS sekarang ibu fina sama... please forgive me i forgot. lol. kepala sekolah pun udah baru, dengan konsekuensi organisasi yang baru. i met MPK XXII (yang sekarang berubah jadi PK, how weird and annoying that name is) dan nanya2 tentang mustah, diksar, dan perubahan apa aja yang ada.

wall PLTM, dengan sangat menyesal, yang tersisa hanya kaya gini

well, i can't expect everything to stay the same, as i changed, so did my highschool. some for the better -as they think it is- but i dont really give a crap. not anymore.

so, before i start ruining the fun, and missing all the melancholy of reminiscing, here you go.

dari depan lab fisika:

see the red arrow? disitu adalah tempat gw ditembak pertama kali di SMA. dengan izin Tuhan, katanya. lol. frantically, persis di seberangnya, adalah tempat gw putus. hahaha.

arah kantin:

dan kenang2an HSK masih ada juga. "dulu kayanya waktu kita SMA 2003 ga lama2 banget, sekarang kok kayanya udah tua ya?", kata andra. ah, gw sih tetep merasa layak menggunakan putih abu-abu. hehe

happy? it was a total bliss. we met the teacher, i miss them, its true. but just when some of their faces turns cold, i just knew why i missed the school. not the building, but the stories behind it.
not the classes, but the people inside it.

2008, kalian yang terbaik :')

something new in 2011

2011-01-23T17:56:00.000+07:00

oke, i admit it, gue suka sm*sh . fcuk it dude, i like the song "i heart you"

you know me so weeelll......

plead

2011-01-04T19:25:00.006+07:00

these are called mesh platform shoe bootie,

and they're my love for the time being.

:)

2010-12-31T15:15:00.003+07:00

eat things i can't swallow
say things i don't comprehend
made me buy clothes i don't wear,
or once i do, just to see my reflection i don't dare
put my attention on things i don't really care

you gave me this list of to-do,
while being me is what i wanted to
i cried and i wept,
but find that those don't really help

then i put on my happy mask,
which i'm getting good at these days.

you were saying?
well of course darling, i love you too.

wish upon a star

2010-12-23T18:09:00.003+07:00

quick reminder of the past,
you wish you could forget.
but how his warmth is still haunting,
on that couch, on the bed you're sleeping.

he's not the only one, but there is only one him.
there are things you wish was kept well hid,
but instead keep on revealing.

but as wishes don't always come true,
i wish this to you.

merry Christmas, dear.
i wish i can love you still.
and always will.

after all

2010-12-15T13:52:00.002+07:00

whatever happens, family comes in second.
after God, that is.

couples

2010-12-07T21:13:00.004+07:00

Timo Prawiro & Gianna Wahab

PS: zoom the writings on the pic, you'll see the cuteness!

Ady Lo & Stephanie Padmadjaja

on long distance, SF-Spore. reminds me of how i used to be, and how i will be :')
look at the pic! it's from an invention called skype! aren't they just sweeeett.

Alman Marvi & Diandra Zara Aurora

don't you just love high school couple that lasts?
i love the way the fight yet still can't be far from each other.

there's actually i couple i wanted to post here, but i'm not sure if gaby would allow me ;)

2010-12-01T11:46:00.002+07:00

kemanakah lagu se-enak ini?

typical

2010-12-01T09:51:00.004+07:00

i'm defenseless. blame me on this openness.
i meant to do n harm, but somehow i know you'd mourn.
sorry would not replace, of the hurt i just create.
but yet it's all i had to offer.
no worries, you'll see the good after.
i believe you'll thank me later.

so,
bye.

2010-11-27T20:54:00.001+07:00

i don't love you

free advertising

2010-11-27T20:48:00.003+07:00

please, don't try this game. ever.
gw udah tamat 3 kali tapi tetep main terus.
gimana dooong???

random no #0074

2010-11-18T12:40:00.000+07:00

why make it easy?

four to three

2010-11-17T23:51:00.005+07:00

love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love you

#prayforindonesia

2010-11-14T19:21:00.000+07:00

don't just pray because disasters happened,
pray that the souls may be saved.

happy sunday, God bless :)

been searching for this, thank you gabriella alodia!

even snoopy know

2010-11-11T11:44:00.002+07:00

i failed to find words these days

2010-11-01T16:38:00.001+07:00

reality bites :'(

2010-11-01T13:24:00.001+07:00

Look in my eyes.
Tell me what they say.
Do they tell you my future?
Or just about today?
Can you see the tears I cry?
Well what about the pain I hide?
Or is it you just don't care what's inside.
All anyone ever sees
is the fake me I have to be.
But if that's all you want to see
then you'll never know
The real me

-Monique, 19, slavery survivor
source: dna, GEMS

like love

2010-10-19T10:43:00.003+07:00

like love we don't understand

like love we don't compel or fly

like love we often weep,

like love we seldom keep

like love we sink

like love we lost

like love we feel unsure

like love we uncertain

like love i say

-ZNR, sometime in february 2008

save great films from dying!

2010-10-14T13:56:00.003+07:00

For further info, email us at info@jiffest.org or jiffest@gmail.com.

Donations can be made to:
Yayasan Masyarakat Mandiri Film Indonesia
No. 7420030091 BCA Percetakan Negara

Please send us the transfer slip through our aforementioned e-mail address or you can fax it to 021-31925360.

"As a note, this year's festival budget is slotted for 2 billion Rupiahs. At the time of writing, we are still short of 1.5 billion Rupiahs.

If we cannot gather around 1 billion Rupiahs until November 1st 2010, then we are forced to postpone this year's JIFFest until further notice.

By saving JIFFest, you are taking part in making Jakarta a more vibrant place.

JIFFest is ours.

Save Our JIFFest.

Greetings,

Committee of Jakarta International Film Festival (JIFFest)."

please do visit their site:
http://2008.jiffest.org/web/2010/news,2,361

it's sad enough that they needed this kind of marketing.
please help, and show that you do care.
thanks :)

woodwind

2010-10-13T20:35:00.006+07:00

harga? ± $ 3,160. Rupiah? 28.440.000
ga ada harga mahasiswa apa di Indonesia? *sigh*
nanti yah baby, nanti kalo saya sudah pro.
untuk sekarang, rasanya yas-23 cukup.

ideas #0065

2010-10-10T13:01:00.007+07:00

i want to have a room for ideas, something like this would do B)

photo source and here

ah-dorable

2010-10-10T12:27:00.003+07:00

oleh-oleh dari jimbo from taman safari.
love love love

should i? should i?

2010-10-04T20:18:00.004+07:00

remember the post don't judge?
i've found a perfect example here

now, what do you think? should i do it?

020309 // 10:41

2010-10-04T14:24:00.001+07:00

Kau bisa bersembunyi dari hujan,
tapi kau tak dapat menepis angin.
Ia mendahuluimu saat kau berlari,
Mendapatimu bahkan saat hening,
ia ada kapanpun ia mau.

Angin kekasihku saat ia berhembus manja.
Tapi aku musuhnya saat ia mendengus marah.
Tak lagi dipandangnya sang lawan,
bahkan api berada dalam kendalinya.

Teman, aku membenci angin, semenjak selalu.
saat ku rapuh, seperti menghancurkanku ia berhembus.
Tak rela ku dibiarkan berdiri tegak diatas,
digoyahkannya aku seperti harus

tapi sungguh aku menyayanginya.
Sebab apalah arti terbang ketika angin tak disana?
Apalah sejuk bila ia tak terhitung didalamnya?

Sebab aku membutuhkannya.
ia bius saat ku sakit, ia morfinku.

Sungguh kontradiksi yang menyedihkan.
Sebab bahkan hujan membutuhkannya.

alto or tenor?

2010-10-03T21:20:00.002+07:00

a thought for 2011 resolution:

how deep?

2010-10-01T23:03:00.003+07:00

"...sampe mau mati rasanya"

photo credit

un-happily ever after

2010-09-29T22:49:00.005+07:00

di mimpiku kamu sempurna,
di khayalku kamu nyata.

aku membuat tokohmu menjadi yang utama,
sejajar dengan diriku yang tak selevel dengan figuran.

kita hidup bahagia,
dengan atau tanpa lamborghini,
walau aku tak perlu memakai tiara swarovski.
aku yang pengertian, kamu yang tanpa kesalahan.
disana kita tak mengenal kosakata galau, jauh dari labil.

dimimpiku kamu sempurna,
tentu saja.
karena kita jauh dari realita.

fumbling something

2010-09-29T12:44:00.004+07:00

while sipping a glass of coffee then i found myself knowing
that it was not you i wanted, nor what i needed.

about something i can't spell,
ally or enemy, i can't really tell.
instead of giving me assuage to run away,
it cussed to stay.
giving me circumstances about how we meant to play.
i'm tired of this game,
when all it tries to get is the fame.

i babble about my heart,
it stays uncertain.
i played randy, it said fancy
what's so great about me being entirely moody?

it's only over when i say it is,
don't worry about your sentences,
because i will let you finish.
but baby, it's the third time and sadly the last.
now you're officially my past.

mago

2010-09-27T17:52:00.005+07:00

Every great magic trick consists of three parts or acts.

The first part is called “The Pledge”.
The magician shows you something ordinary: a deck of cards, a bird or a man. He shows you this object. Perhaps he asks you to inspect it to see if it is indeed real, unaltered, normal. But of course… it probably isn’t.

The second act is called “The Turn”. The magician takes the ordinary something and makes it do something extraordinary.
Now you’re looking for the secret… but you won’t find it, because of course you’re not really looking. You don’t really want to know. You want to be fooled. But you wouldn’t clap yet. Because making something disappear isn’t enough; you have to bring it back.

That’s why every magic trick has a third act,
the hardest part,
the part we call

“The Prestige”.

so are you watching closely?

1:33 a.m.

2010-09-23T01:32:00.001+07:00

AWESOME

2010-09-22T22:59:00.001+07:00

cool huh? :DDDD

paaar-taaaaay! :D

2010-09-22T12:45:00.003+07:00

"behave"

what are you talkin' bout? i AM behaving :)

all time favorite

2010-09-16T11:01:00.009+07:00

hello, my favorite history.
i just want you to know that

not that i want you back,
not that i don't want to.
this is getting confusing,
as words can never replace what my heart meant to say.

we were great,
but we could be better.
you could be my chuck, and i would be your blair

but now unfortunately,

i wish the things i shouldn't and i took things for granted.
i guess i'll just let

to satisfy your curiosity.

7 letters,

i truly do.
please take care of your self too,
the way i did when i was with you.

we are as complicated as we ever was.
yet i still hope in some future,
we'll encounter again
and with the courage i've gained,

shortly

2010-09-12T17:58:00.002+07:00

i don't just love the person.
i get in first,
then i fall inside of it.

so shortly, that is how i fell in love.

khayalan

2010-09-10T16:42:00.008+07:00

Visionen-

Jij dacht jezelf voor eeuwig van mij weg, //
kamu menganggap dirimu abadi pergi dariku,
Maar eeuwig zijn allen herinneringen //
tetapi yang abadi hanyalah kenang-kenangan
Aan jou, aan jouw genot, aan mijn verbod //
padamu, pada gairahmu, pada laranganku
Op jou. Nu mag je nooit meer buiten mij. //
untukmu. sekarang kau tak boleh lagi hidup tanpaku
Tezamen zullen wij dit leven delen, //
bersama kita akan berbagi hidup ini,
Samen in mijn gedachten lezen. Ik //
bersama membaca pikiranku. semua
Heb alles wat ik zag voor je verzameld; //
yang kulihat kukumpulkan untukmu;
Ik keef de visionen door, opdat //
aku meneruskan khayalan, supaya

Wij samen afvragen: wie kon de kalmte //
bersama kita dapat mempertanyakan: siapa bisa tinggal tetap
Bewaren in zichzelf, om zwart op wit //
tenang dalam dirinya, untuk langsung
Dat naderende meisjeslijf te filmen, //
memfilmkan sosok gadis mendekat
Terwijl het naakt en schreeuwend, schroeiend liep. //
seraya --------- dan berteriak, hangus berjalan.
Help mij en heb mij lief. Ik heb geen vreugde //
bantulah aku dan cintailah aku. aku tak bahagia
Maar wel de helft van een geheugen voor je. //
tetapi punya separuh ingatan untukmu

-Ramsey Nasr

my comfortable

2010-09-09T20:50:00.004+07:00

hello there mr. right.
i'm here and i just want to tell you
that i'm not doing fine so would you
come here a little faster and
hug me tight?

(ps: i'm sorry, he's always busy with his fender)

kata

2010-09-08T12:43:00.002+07:00

i must be flattered
for all those words you said.
but forgive me treasure,
you're no longer that rare.
i am now reluctant,
to love you fully, i can't.

Dirgahayu Indonesia

2010-08-22T19:51:00.008+07:00

Indonesia punya anak bangsa yang luar biasa, tidak tahukah?

luar biasa dedicated, seperti Bpk. Yohanes Surya, yang bisa dengan rendah hati ga menggunakan seumur hidupnya jadi corporate slaves, menolak berbagai tawaran menggiurkan dari world class CEO-s, dan menenangkan istrinya dirumah bahwa dia dan anaknya pasti dapet makan walaupun dengan menjadi pahlawan tanpa tanda jasa.

luar biasa talented, seperti Anggun C. Sasmi, Sandhy Sondoro, Dira J. Sugandi, The S.I.G.I.T yang tau mengharumkan nama bangsa tidak harus berada di negri sendiri. meskipun tanpa ketenaran yang bisa didapat anang-syahrini, misalnya.

luar biasa pintar, seperti Bpk. BJ Habibie, yang walaupun telah dimanfaatkan politik negri ini untuk menghancurkan nama baiknya, tetap legowo, lalu menunjukkan prestasi dan kemampuannya yang menghasilkan 3 teori dalam aerodinamika. cukup menahan nafas saya. baru-baru ini bahkan beliau menceritakan kisah yang mengharukan sekali di mata najwa, sukses bikin terkagum-kagum, bagaimana beliau bisa memaksimalkan kerja otak, tanpa kehilangan fungsi hati.

luar biasa sabar, sepeti Ibu Sri Mulyani I. yang tidak hanya pintar dalam ilmu ekonomi, tapi juga memiliki kemampuan untuk mengubah pertumbuhan sebuah bangsa yang dapet dihitung dan dibuktikan dengan angka, idealis sedemikian rupa, sekali lagi harus mengalah dengan politik. grr, masih bt kalo dibahas. tapi yasudahlah, yang membanggakan adalah beliau sekarang sedang mengharumkan ama bangsa di world bank. in your face, silly politicians!

luar biasa dalam menyayangi, seperti Albertine Marie Kawilarang. sejak 13, dan hingga 70 tahun setelahnya masih menyayangi orang yang sama, setia pada orang yang sama, walaupun manado-amsterdam, jakarta-manado, (and may i recall that 65 years ago there was no facebook, skype, msn, or even computer! so the situation left them with....... love letters. how sweet is that :3 ) dan walaupun skarang jaraknya ga memungkinkan ditempuh, i believe that she's still in love, with all her heart.

sebab anak-anak bangsa diatas, beberapa dari mereka dikecewakan politik, dan faktor-faktor lain yang saya masih tidak mengerti mengapa harus dipersoalkan di negeri ini namun tak menyerah, hanya mengelus dada dan membalas dengan prestasi yang membanggakan. tapi tak hanya itu saja.

tak mengindahkan opportunity cost-yang hilang, walaupun saya yakin mereka pasti telah menghitungnya. mereka merelakan kepentingan dirinya sendiri, mengabdi dengan hati, dan intelegensi yang mereka punya demi mengharumkan nama ibu pertiwi. sebuah cara yang tepat untuk mendefinisikan pengabdian yang luar biasa.

jadi ibu pertiwi, jangan menangis lagi, masih banyak putra putri bangsa yang peduli :)

how dare you?

2010-08-17T11:33:00.010+07:00

how a feeling called love, can build, or destroy human,
*snap
just like that.

ga bermaksud sombong, tapi gw ga merasa cari pacar adalah hal yang rumit. my problems start to show up justru when it's over. seperti istri lot, gw selalu melihat kebelakang. untung gw belom dikutuk Tuhan dijadiin tiang garam.

well, menurut gw itu hal yang wajar bukan? that person once a part of your life, if he's good enough, part of your heart, if he's better than anyone before, your life. dan gw, 2 kali terakhir, stupid enough to let them be like the third. my life.

bad? yes, very. sampai sekarang gw ga sepenuhnya mengerti mengapa satu manusia bisa membuat dampak segitu besarnya dalam 24 jam hari saya, 7 hari dalam seminggu. it seems like he was being implanted in my head. the thought of him is just there. on the food i eat, on every single song i hear, and every thoughts before i go to sleep.

how? God created human single, right? adam did not ask for a gf, nor a wife. she did not just complete him. he's whole, even before his rib was taken away to create eve. same here, i was living peacefully until that 7 letters boy came to my life and *KAZAM! transform it. yet when he left, a part of me is missing. how? how?

how could you?!

3, untuk selamanya

2010-08-11T18:34:00.004+07:00

terimakasih 1068 kali.
mungkin lebih.
mungkin harusnya pangkat 1068 setelah denomisasi
untuk anda yang sabar menanti.
maaf untuk kalimat yang tak terpikir,
maaf untuk kata yang tetap kusimpan dalam hati.

terimakasih, sekali lagi :)

me wanna! ♥

2010-08-10T13:09:00.003+07:00

please please please, can these two be mine?

and so i've learned

2010-08-06T10:20:00.005+07:00

that even the best movie and music ends, couples split, and life can always ends.
no matter how hard you tried,
no matter how stubborn you were,
and no matter how signs put you together,
God gave you the ability to make your own choices.
heaven or hell.
right or wrong.
to be with or to be without.

so here it is, my two words for this moment.
for i am okay. and so this is:

welcome, memories of the past

reminiscing the old times

2010-08-04T07:37:00.007+07:00

this is the part of my life called: missing highschool.

tadi pagi gw berangkat kantor naik ojek. dan abangnya mencoba rute baru: pondok labu. jadilah kami lewat jalan-jalan sempit, melanggar lalu lintas demi mengejar waktu. tapi didepan pasar pondok labu, gw serasa dibawa balik lewat mesin waktu, when i saw high school-er, dressed as they are, walking towards the same direction that i did. 2 years ago.

di sepanjang 25 meter itu, everything went on a flashback.

i saw myself, dressed in putih-abu-abu. misuh-misuh benerin rambut, carrying heavy books, tucking in my shirt (but take them out as soon as i get to class), putting on my black belt, wearing my black converse properly, trying to make my appearance looks neat enough for the first 5 minutes. because once we pass the teachers, (standing in front of the gate, waiting to be honored, and search through every inch of your uniform for any wrongs), seragam nya udah balik ke berantakan mode. lol.

i saw "Toko Buku Palapa", and there, i saw me and MPK XIX, buying stationaries to satisfy the fad-ness of our seniors, i saw me and diandra, buying art stuff, pencils again and again, God knows where they went every 3 months.

i saw me and gaby, di warjok dan di naskun. warteg pertama yang dikenalkan ke lidah gw. dan enak!

i saw whole lot of us, di fotokopian, buat yang ngerjain makalah last minute, jadi baru dijilid, dan tugas-tugas yang sering banget ga make sense.

i saw IX, right before i entered the gate, dadang. there they were, in free-spirit, conservative yet full of surprises. never get enough, but always as one, because 'we'll never walk alone'

R. Serbaguna, i saw a bunch of stubborn people. MPK, Mitra Karya, our debates, and the ones who at the end of the year, had so much drama there. it's okay that 5 of us left the building, they never left our hearts, remember? and all of us knew why there isn't much explanation given. because we're built to survive. with greater minds, and bigger heart :)

can't get a further look inside, because i was just passing by. but no worries 34 #2008, our memories, isn't just a 'walk-on-by'.

i miss you guys :')

weekends! :D

2010-07-23T21:56:00.010+07:00

last 3 saturdays was kraaazyyy!

1st was my final test of managerial economics. it was friggin hard! i can only answer 2 out of 5. 1 was my own theory of econ. why is it so crazy? i scored A. HA-!

2nd, we went to Pekan Raya Jakarta! wohooooo! finally, after years of waiting, finally, i eat KERAK TELOR!

and believe it or not, there's an association for 'abang-abang-kerak-telor' cool, huh?
the taste was a bit weird, since i drank starbucks after that. which simply doesn't match -_-

> me and fitra, struggling to finish the food

> when apparently ponco was hungry and kindly finish it up for us. lol.

we went to rumah misteri too! it was funny instead of scary (but still i got scared) haha. watched sandhy sondoro, could've been great, if only the sound wasn't being such a jerk. and saw fitra's lost twin brother: Ario Wahab. ahahaha.

>me and none Jakarta Selatan ;)

3rd, i went to TAMAN SAFARI INDONESIA! yeaaaaaahhh!
went there with steph, who FINALLY GOT HOME. and drag me all the way there. haha.

we met gloria (her real name is sarah. no offense) alex who was too busy sleeping, and melman! haha.

watched the dolphin show too! sadly, just when we're about to arrive at the baby zoo, steph's camera went gay and run out of battery. but i had fun, fun. hoping to be here again by august! hehe.

now, tommorrow is saturday.
any ideas?

give me a week, i'll get over this

2010-07-20T21:36:00.004+07:00

this is the moment of my life called: licking my own words.

i fell for a kunoichi.
yes, yes, i'm wrong, i knoww! :(

YAY!

2010-07-08T21:17:00.004+07:00

Gelora Bung Karno, Jakarta, Indonesia

no words, just total excitement.
doesn't really care who's on the frame, but i looveeeee the result of my first roll of Holga.

my value

2010-07-02T14:47:00.003+07:00

"you cheap sl*t"

about that,
don't compare me to dollars, or any currency.
my value can't be compared to that.
you know, there's actually a phrase for that.

i'm priceless.

destiny calls

2010-06-29T17:48:00.002+07:00

"we create our own destiny, princess"
-Prince Dastan

gombal!

2010-06-27T20:47:00.004+07:00

your world is my world
And my fight is your fight
my breath is your breath
And your heart and now I've got my
One love, My one heart, My one life for sure
Let me tell you one time
(girl I love, girl I love you)

beiber fever! ;D

happy father's day!

2010-06-21T19:35:00.006+07:00

my definition of gentleman:

he never quite said that he's proud of me,
but once he smile,
...that's my best trophy

tribute to

2010-06-18T21:05:00.004+07:00

since the one who tutor me is having the 'oh-God-i'm-turning-20' of his life, i'll make a post for him.

happy birthday, no! go and get your present :)

oh, and to carla too.

don't judge

2010-06-13T12:17:00.006+07:00

i want a tatoo of this:

right in the back of my neck

afterlife

2010-06-12T17:39:00.003+07:00

lalu mengapa jika tujuanmu surga,
takut engkau akan nisan?

sebab kalau sudah selesai tugasmu di dunia,
kamu bisa apa?